Kerana selagi nyawa dikandung badan, selagi itulah diri ini akan terus menerima cabaran.
Alhamdullillah, setelah berperang dan berkonflik dengan diri, ana menyerahkan diri untuk dipantau oleh ketua bidang pada sesi P & P pagi tadi.
Such a beneficial thing but somehow I always scare of..
The day before the observation, I told myself that ‘I am not well-prepared mentally."
Obviously, yes.. because I just don’t want this thing happen to me.
I just don’t want myself to be observed by someone else
But now, forget all those non-senses accuses.
They will never being helpful for the rest of my lives.
I need to shift the paradigm..Change the way I perceive things.
YES! Positively.
But, how long I can istiqamah with all this?
Am I too fragile in coping with what would happen next?
Laa haw la wala quwwata illa billahil a’dziim….
Meaning that, everything you are undertaking, you should never rely on yourselves..
But Allah SWT is always be there right by your side.
That Allah knows the best for you.
That HE will never leave you alone amidst of your thick and thin
That HE would always send HIS Mercy in times of need
That Allah is everything and Having HIM is enough in my life
That if I do not receive motivational words from others
Nobody comprehends what I am suffering
To whom I guess the right persons to know what is apparently taking place
I should realize that
Nobody could keep me away from Allah
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SubhanaAllah…
I realized that being here in Pitas has something I need to look beyond it.
I truly believe that Allah has His best plans for me being posted here,
far away from hometown with very painful roads.. the bad conditions of the road, probably do not hurt both me and my car physically, but the suffering does permeate deep inside of my heart.
Yet, those feelings fade away quickly as I know that Allah is always with me, knowing everything – my feelings – thoughts – intentions – Yes. All!
Allah will never let me hurt too long too much.
Always He entertains me whenever it takes me to do so.
Definitely
Whenever I see problems, evils, something went wrong, something wrong somewhere,
Whenever I try to figure them out
Yet, I do not know how to sort them out
Allah knows everything
That whenever I terribly worried about my safety
HE gives me inevitable unexpected strength
That I need most in my trouble times
There is no body I can turn to
As wonderful magical touches as Allah gives
His Rahmah His bless are just too
Too
Too
Too
What I always want
I always need
Every second
Laa Haula Wala Quwwata Illah Billahil a’dziim
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