Saturday, August 21, 2010

HIM VS him

I noticed this feeling earlier
But i never knew 
It would come to this level
Telling myself it's just a lie
Comes from black heart of mine
That i don't deserve for him

Could you tell him
That this feeling i can't stand it sometime
I'm just scared of being drifted away
From YOUR way

Don't know why
Why does it come so frequently
I dont deserve for him
Tell him
I would like too
If YOU want it to be
Kun Fa Ya Kun with YOUR bless

Yet
I am still waiting in patience
Waiting for YOUR calling
Let me stick with you
Coz i know that
It's enough having ONLY you in my lifetime
I give it back to you
I only want your love
Yours is the BEST
I know you'll listen me
And tell him as well
With Your AL MIGHTY


Kebaikan VS Kezaliman

  Pengisian usrah minggu lepas masih segar dalam ingatan ini sesegar pengetahuan baru, pemahaman baru tentang dua perkara: Kebaikan VS Kezaliman. Usrah hari itu bercerita tentang ayat 5 hingga 9, Surah As Saff. Ayat sebelumnya terlebih dahulu sudah dibentangkan. "Yang dikatakan golongan yang zalim itu apabila mereka sengaja mencampakkan diri mereka ke neraka Allah SWT". Demikian antara ungkapan daripada pembentang, Cikgu Milus yang sengaja ana pilih untuk memberi pengisian.

Sengaja ke Neraka

Sungguh, apabila ana membelek dan memerhati terjemahan ayat-ayat Quran, Allah SWT banyak mengulangi tentang golongan yang zalim, iaitu golongan yang mendustakan kebenaran islam. Namun, pemahaman ana  sebelum ini hanya setakat sampai "orang-orang yang tidak mahu menerima dan sombong menerima kebenaran, sengaja memadamkan cahaya yang Allah berikan." Tetapi, betapa malang sekali mereka! Hakikatnya, inilah golongan yang dikatakan menempah tiket menikmati azab neraka yang pastinya dahsyat tak tertanggung. Naudzubillah.

Asingkah?

Daripada Abu Hurairah r.a. berkata: Bersabda Rasulullah saw,

“Islam mula tersebar dalam keadaan dagang (asing). Dan ia akan kembali asing pula.  Maka...beruntunglah orang­-orang yang asing”.
                                                                                                                              (Hadis Riwayat Muslim)
Tersentak sekali lagi. Kali ini apabila dikatakan kebaikan menjadi sesuatu yang asing di kalangan kita. "Eh, pelik lah kau ni haiza, hari ahad pun pakai baju kurung". "Wah, kau ni alim betul. Siap pakai stokin lagi!"Antara respon kawan-kawan ketika kami ketemu untuk reunion hari itu. Sedikit sebanyak terbit rasa malu ana dengan serpaan begitu. Berteka teki, ana malu kerana berpakaian begitu atau malu kerana banyaknya dosa dan maksiat ana, tapi berpakaian yang sedemikian pula? Malu kerana Allah atau malu kerana Manusia?

  Itulah antara sedikit contoh betapa perkara yang dianggap kecil lagi enteng bagi orang lain nampak sangat pelik dan luarbiasa. Tidak biasa. Jarang-jarang, kadang-kadang. Ana yakin, banyak lagi perkara yang baik dan cantik tetapi menjadi sesuatu yang asing dikalangan kita semua. Solat di masjid, menutup aurat, malah ana pernah digelar sebagai "arqam" apabila ana mengambil keputusan untuk melabuhkan sedikit baju T-Shirt dengan memakai baju muslimah. Sedih, terkejut pada mulanya. Tetapi,  Alhamdullilah Allah melapangkan hati ana menerima ujian ini.

  Lagi, kita akan mengatakan "biasa la tu" acapkali ternampak, terdengar sesuatu tentang hal-hal tercela. Pasangan sedang berdating, buang bayi, judi, rokok, zina dan pelbagai kebejatan maksiat dan dosa. Kita tak lagi hairan menyaksikan bermaharajalelanya kemungkaran, malah lebih teruk  kita sendiri yang menjadi watak dan pelakonnya.

Adakah masih ada secebis selemah-lemah iman kita membenci semua ini di hati sanubari?

Apakah yang sepatutnya menjadi biasa dan pelik/asing bagi kita?


 

 


Bismillahi Rahmani Rahiim

  Alhamdullillah, finally i managed to come up with my own blog. Seriously, i loved reading blogs. Some of them are just very powerful in giving me strength and great consciousness on returning this heart back to HIM. I will never so sure how this writing will be looked like, but Hopefully He will give me His Mercy to conduct it smoothly and consistently, and the most important thing is you and me will find it beneficial.

   Insha Allah i  will come up with my own piece of writing. I know this effort will be showered with many obstacles, and i hope it will open my mind, the way i perceive things around me, and i will gain something precious through this.

  What drives me to do this? Maybe because when i read people's blog, most of the time i feel impress and it makes me think "if someday i can do this". Well, it's a wonderful feeling! theirs are very colourful and informative, i wanted to possess it as well but, absolutely with my own style. Easier said than done!

Surah As Saff:

2. O you who believe, why do you say what you not do? 3. Most hateful it is with Allah that what you say you do not do

Telling us how it is very important of doing what you say. When you say something, make sure you do it.

That is a very big "amanah" to me and i pray to Allah that He will guide me and always bless me in doing all this.  And, to my all dearest, please give me a reminder as i just really need it for always.

Love HIM